Ya Lose Some, Ya Gain Some

Well I have decided to put a little tracker of my weight loss on the right side of my blog. So people can see my progress. Well if you look at it I did not lose this week. I gained 0.2 pounds which is hardly anything but still it wasn't a loss. Was I the best on my diet the past week? No. So that is why I have regrouped and back on track. I am working out twice a day, (Curves in the morning, running at night) and eating right. If you are ever planning or are losing weight I recommend keeping some kind of journal or blog (like me!) because looking back at how motivated I was helped motivate me back to that time.

A lot of people have come to me telling me they keep up with my blog and are so proud of me. I want to thank everyone for every encouraging words I have received. It is so nice and helpful to have positive reinforcement. You all make me work a little bit harder so I can keep losing and getting healthy. I want to explain the reasoning for my blog.

Since I can remember I have struggled with dieting and being healthy. I guess you can say I wanted results fast, well realistically that does not happen. You can't expect to lose 20 pounds in two weeks. Once I got to college is when I really gained my weight. I look back at pictures from high school thinking "Wow I thought I was so fat in high school...what's wrong with me?" Well I have always criticized myself whenever I look in the mirror. I haven't been happy with my body since probably the age of 13. However I never really did anything about it. You would think after junior high when I was called fat, huge, or boys shaking the desks when I would walk by would make me want to change... I think it just made it worse because I would eat to feel better.

I will say I put up with a lot of crap from people calling me fat and other names. I finally got to a point in college where I would just be like "good one. tell me something I don't already know." I let myself get use to people calling me fat. That is not right. And let me say something right now, no man should EVER call a woman fat!!

So after a lot of soul searching I've realized I am such an emotional eater. I would eat when I am sad or stressed. Heck I would eat out of boredom. I was eating so badly it was affecting my mood. I would have the worst mood swings. I mean it got to the point I would only eat fast food. I knew if I wanted to be successful in my career path of choice (PR/Event Planning) I was going to have to make some changes for myself to gain that confidence I need to succeed.

So why I am I writing this blog? It is my own kind of therapy. I can say what I feel and feel better after I have typed it up. Also, I want to inspire other young women who have been through the same things as me. I have always said when I died I want to at least change one person's life and make an impact on this world. Well my blog may be read by only my friends and family but if I can help one person. I have done my job. I have already had about 4 people tell me they are going to start Weight Watchers because of my success on it. That is amazing! I wish them the greatest success.

I truly believe in the power of change and you can be happy and healthy, but you have to want to do it for yourself! Being the world's biggest yo-yo dieter I can honestly say I am actually doing it for myself this time!