It has been a year of ups and downs, highs and lows, and everything in between. I am declaring 2012 the year I started growing up. So let's see how it all started shall we?
I was a college graduate, living at home, babysitting once or twice a week and eating my feelings because my life was in shambles. I thought the world was going to play out for me one day and I would live this fabulous life of the rich and famous. Clearly I needed to get over that and I did. I made the decision to start of a diet. As the world's biggest yo-yo dieter I was scared.. I did not want to fail at yet another diet. I wanted to truly do this and I did. (I have lost 60 pounds so far) After starting weight watchers I could see my life going in the direction I dreamed of.
In May, I moved to Nashville with one of my friends. It was hard to move away from my family but I had to start growing up. After a few weeks I landed a job. I was so lucky to fall into this position in a communications department of a huge corporation. I am able to pay my own bills and rent. I never thought I could do this.
I had so many wonderful things going on and it felt almost too good to be true at times..
I still never felt like I was changing. I still saw this extremely overweight girl in the mirror. I had people tell me all the time how great I looked, they loved reading my blog, or how proud they were of my accomplishments. With a hundred wonderful things being said it felt like the few who liked calling me "big girl" or make fun of what I was doing could totally tear me down. I try to be such a strong person but it is hard to be criticized for something you work so hard on.
This year I am going to try and block all of those things out. This is for anyone who has been made fun of or anything. DO NOT let anyone or anything tear you down. Remember that you are working on becoming a better person and they just have making fun of others to get them through the day.